Feeling Shame Towards a Past Version of Yourself (With Meditation How To)

Beloved, 

Healing is hard. Waking up to realizing you are a version of yourself that is standing in your own way is hard. It can be frustrating to have no idea where to start on this journey other than knowing where we came from. Even worse, when we realize the sneaky ways we spiritually bypass, rather than actually letting things go. Or even realizing how our past choices have negatively affected us, causing us to clean up our own mess.

This could very well be a past version that you hate about yourself, and that is okay. It is okay to bring awareness to the judgment we feel for our past self. Because one day, you may wake up to appreciate this character’s strength. How amidst all of the obstacles set against you, you are still standing. You are still going, determined to be your best version of yourself. This character whom you may judge, that is still you. And all versions of you deserve love, acceptance, and freedom. All versions of you deserve Grace and Compassion regardless of their choices. 

Despite it all, that version had enough hope and trust within themself to allow a more experienced and mature version of themself to take over in hopes to lead a life they actually want. Our ignorance and lack of knowledge at that moment does not determine our worth. For we are worthy of Grace and Compassion. It is okay to not know then what we know now. We can hold and support that version of ourselves in ways now that we didn’t have the tools in the past. 

Lastly, all versions of us deserve forgiveness. We are allowed to be human. We are allowed to make mistakes, for it is our collective experience that makes us unique. It is our mistakes that lead us into knowing and ability to guide others who walk a similar path to us.

Affirmations:

I am worthy of Grace and Compassion.

It is okay to make a mistake. 

It is okay to witness the (Insert emotions) I feel towards past versions of myself. 

I accept all versions of myself.

I am willing to witness all parts of myself.

I am open to forgiveness towards myself.

If this blog resonates with you and you’re ready to find acceptance of these parts of you, please reach out to me if you’d like assistance on this process. If you decided to forgo this process on your own time, it may be helpful to first address the judgement and other emotions you feel towards this version of you. Write them down, I feel (such and such). Give yourself permission to criticize and judge, but make sure to get down to the deeper emotions of what criticism is masking. Then, breathe into each feeling and imagine releasing them with your exhale, one by one. As you’re doing this, embody this past version of you, what are they feeling? What are the negative beliefs that come up? 

Holding this space is where we hold Compassion and Grace. In this moment, we are able to hold this version and allow them to finally speak through emotion as though they are our own child. As a wiser version of yourself, what would you like to tell this younger version of you? What do they need to know? Do you accept them? Be sure to thank them for their part in your life. As you are releasing any emotions, be sure to speak the affirmations above and envision what they feel like in your body. For we are now filling this space that once held pain with light and direction.

Best Regards,

Jarisa